I’d be programmed to
Love who, when, where I should and
Then I’d still love you.
Tag: hurt feelings
Sad Summary
I don’t want to be
Alone. But, I don’t want to
Be alone with you.
Spite
Paradise I gave
You; you call it hell. You took
My secrets and told
The world. Now I
Waste away beneath the ground;
Your satisfaction.
Forsaken
Just forget me, I’m
All but dead, if not in the
Heart, then in the head.
Fragile Hopes
This web I’ve woven,
Tangled knots, best intentions,
Recriminations,
If I could ignore,
Everything I’ve been before,
Perhaps I’d perform
The way they want me
To. I dance and sing, smiling
All the while, dead.
Cold Storage
She’ll leave you lonely
In the meat locker while you
Seethe, that you’d learn not
To disregard her
Expectations. But you have
Glacial cold blue blood.
Jacob’s Ladder
“The only thing that burns in hell is the part of you that won’t let go of your life: your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away, but they’re not punishing you, they’re freeing your soul. If you’re frightened of dying and you’re holding on, you’ll see devils tearing your life away. If you’ve made your peace, then the devils are really angels freeing you from the earth.”
Jacob’s Ladder, Meister Eckhart. https://youtu.be/yt3Ny_BG3yQ
An Island
I am the one who
Cares, not one cared for. I give
To others, they don’t
Give to me. Alone
Is the only time when I am
Of one mind. Relief.
The Golden Boy
Scion, old money
Finds me on a couch, says we
Should eat at the school
Of culinary
Arts nearby. No longer mad
At me; my anger
Evaporated.
I am having cocktails for
Breakfast again. The
Mirror shows my face,
Sun burnt. We chat about crowds,
Anxiety and
Vaccines, descending
By elevator through the
Thronging masses. He
Sees my face under
The mask, and he is friendly
This time, we are friends.
