Whenever I say
Something really stupid I
Smile wide because I
Probably just spoke
The truth for the first time in
A really long time.
Tag: residency
Space Monkey
They all revise my
History as if they were
Always on my side,
But I remember
What I really am to them:
A space monkey, the
One they pinned their dreams
On, kept in a cage, fed drugs,
Forgot on weekends.
Strapped in a tube and
Shot into space. They don’t know
How cold it is here.
Their show of support
Rings hollow as I labor
To save a world
Not my own, drifting
Further from who I am and
My still beating heart.
Temptation to Quit
Death is a woman,
Beautiful, luxurious,
Cold, waiting for me.
Choke
I wanted to catch
Your conscience by telling you
Honestly about
The pain you caused me
But you just tightened your grip
On my throat, grinning.
Door Slam
Better plan a quick
Funeral because you are
Fucking dead to me.
Deadened
It only hurts when I
Breathe, or hope, or believe
In something again.
Pill
Food doesn’t taste right.
Take a pill. Feeling mean. Take
A pill. Dark clouds hang
Over me. Take a pill.
This time I’ll feel better. I
Take a pill. I wait.
Cold Comfort
Your encouragement
Is Vaseline soaked gauze on
My sucking chest wound.
Hope Floats Away
You have to give up.
Hope is what is killing you.
It will never change.
It will always hurt
Like this. Nothing will improve it.
Release it and breathe.
