Evil eye rests its
Angry gaze on me. I raise
A mirror, blinded.
Evil eye rests its
Angry gaze on me. I raise
A mirror, blinded.
The tense remainder
Of this bitter day, I seek
Release, forgetting,
A reset button.
But my mind fights the battle
Again, on and on.
Step on my neck to
Get ahead, don’t be surprised
When I fucking bite.
Throttle, crush, smash, just
Nonstop devastation and
Cruelty abound.
I will make you so
Sorry that you ever crossed
Me. Choke you to death.
Rip your snide little
Grin right off your fucking face.
Struggle and suffer.
Burn in agony.
I hope you die blue in the
Face, gasping for breath.
I am pitiless.
They have pitted us against
Each other. Only
One can arise from
This pit, and it’s going to
Be me. No mercy.
My social skills are
Rusty from this quarantine.
We had a rapport,
I remember. What
Happened? Did I change or you?
Or did I project
Relationship that
Was merely acquaintance? My
Fictitious world.
Sometimes I want to
Do wicked things to earn the
Shame I always feel.
At the threshold to
Abundance, I beheld my
Heart’s deepest yearning.
To be seen, to be
Known, appreciated and
Cherished. To see joy
In stranger’s eyes when
They behold me. To speak and
Be heard, understood.
To enjoy the fruits of
My labors. To have my love
Exchanged, increased, shared.
To no longer be
Alone, to share my deepest
Longings with someone.
Finished screaming to
The void, now my voice joins with
A chorus, comrades.
Plunging through space I
Fall into infinity
Awaiting nothing
To you, I’m an ape.
The one who can’t get it right.
Your erudition
By ineptitude
Mocked. Your endorsement forced by
Circumstance, against
Your better judgment.
You put your weakness on me.
With a word I could
Destroy you, but it
Wouldn’t change a thing. Just like
Nothing I do will
Change your mind. I must
Spend my days, body wracked with
Tension, laboring
To master every
Intricacy over and
Again, trying to
Forget you exist.
Futility ever dogs
Me. To you I send
It, from whence it came.
This craft is beautiful, and
It is mine to keep.