Find Water

Don’t mind your head throbbing. Look for green. Watch for roots. Go downhill. Smell. Smell more. Walk towards it if it smells wet. Remember that your whole being wants water, needs water.

Dig. Dig deeper. Don’t be picky. If there’s mud, stick your face in it. Follow the bugs. Look for salt.

Ignore the sludge in your head and in your veins. Scrape out that clay and stick it in your mouth. Spit it out when you start gagging. Grab for more clay, and repeat, until your fingernails crack and bleed.

Forget everything that’s ever happened. Feel the sun baking you, turning you to leather, and find water.

Recall that you walk in the footsteps of your ancestors of millions of years. Feel the prehuman core of you, the mammal, the lizard, the one who has survived and will survive.

Don’t be afraid of the scorpions hissing around you. Grab a rock and smash them if you can. Separate the tail. Eat those little bastards. Pretend it’s lobster. Imagine a five star restaurant, and crush another one.

Cercophonius squama (Gervais, 1844), Wood Scorpion by Photographer: Rodney Start is licensed under CC-BY 4.0

Keep moving as your body starts to shake. Don’t fear as the sun is setting. Find rocks, find something to keep the wind out, to keep the wind from you, to become your hard shell. Tighten yourself into a ball and shut your eyes tight as the air around you gets colder and colder.

Take comfort, you have not been forgotten. Picture her face and how easy life was with her. Let the warmth spread around you. Sleep, or at least rest.

Wake with the sting of the reborn sun, and shake the bugs off. Grab that beetle and crunch it down. Take your shirt off and shake it out. Turn it inside out and put it back on, the filth faces your skin and protects you a little.

Look to the horizon. Move toward that shimmering image. Hear her voice, soothing, stirring. Don’t doubt it as a mirage. Consider it as motivation. Movement is life, motion is life.

Find the dew on the rocks, the condensation, and cup it into your hands, lick it, slake your thirst, every drop. Take your filthy socks and soak them with the wet, and then stuff them in your pockets as canteens. Picture every drop as ambrosia, golden nectar of the gods gliding down your throat, giving you life and strength.

Feel the life returning to you. Walk with greater purpose. Hear the thrum of the helicopter, wave your arms and shout from your now moist throat.

Fall to your hands and knees as the helicopter lands. Weep from exhausted tear ducts as they cover you with a blanket. Try not to gulp the water as it’s drizzled into your cracked lips. Give your thanks to them, for finding you, for not forgetting you, as they tell you to rest. Shut your eyes and let yourself be carried onto the helicopter. Feel the death lift from you as the helicopter rises above the desert. Pass into sleep, and feel your life returning to you.

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Vultures

The vultures are eyeing me, staring me down. They look hungry, ready to rend me limb from limb. I have to keep moving.

I can smell the stench of carrion around me. I cough, I gag, I continue to crawl.

One lands in front of me, and screeches in my face; I reach out to shoo it away, try and scare it off with my last, fading breath. I pick up a branch near me and swat at the bird. It flies away.

I keep one foot in front of the next, lurching onward. The sun beats down upon me, and I swallow, my throat parched, feeling like a single sheet of tissue.

How did I end up like this? Where had I gone wrong? My head spins; I feel like I’ve been walking for my entire life. Fatigue tears at my shoulders, pulling me down. I can’t stop, I have to remember who I am and what I’m trying to do.

I feel the rush of feathers on my back as the vulture comes at my back; I whirl around and smack him with my open hand, and he flies off. Only then do I feel where his beak tore my back, the new hole in my shoulder. The pain staggers me when it comes. I keep moving, and hold the bloody wound closed.

Sweat closes my eyes. I swipe them free with my bloodied hand, and smear my face with blood. God, what’s happened to me?

If I can reach shelter, I can keep the birds away, so they won’t tear my flesh further. I need water, there has to be water here in this desert, somewhere.

Ahead, over the rise, something dark breaks the yellow sand. Rock? There could be moisture on one of its sides, there could be some kind of vegetation.

The vultures flit before me, shading my burned face in alternating moments. I hear them screaming, circling faster and faster.

I kneel at the rock, which is dry and hot to the touch. I snatch at the sharp edges, trying to pull it out, cursing, stomping on it with what’s left of my boot. Finally a sharp shard breaks free, and I stand, with what might be the last of my strength.

The vulture screeches toward me flying faster. I strike out as it gets closer.

I crush its stupid fucking head.